I talked to one of my best friends on the phone tonight for the first time in such a long time. It felt so good to gossip and catch up with her cause it’s been *so* long since we’ve done that. I’m really horrible at keeping in touch and going to colleges in different parts of the state didn’t help. But it makes me so happy to know that in our case, growing up doesn’t mean growing apart. I may not know what goes on in her daily life but I know the big things, the important things. And that means a lot to me.

I used to think it was weird that I would still call Carmen my “best friend” when the reality was that we would only see each other maybe twice a year when I would visit Southern CA or that we only talked on birthdays and holidays. I thought that maybe I was just being nostalgic because we were so close back in high school and because of my painfully shy nature I didn’t have too many close friends in college or maybe I was just kidding myself and I didn’t want to believe that we weren’t each other’s best friends anymore. I was so confused about her place in my life and vice versa that I forgot that she really does know me best. We’ve known each other since we were like 6 and she’s been witness to and even shared some of my best and worst moments — and that’s something I won’t be able to share with anyone else. Even though we don’t see each other often, when we do, it’s so easy to get back in the groove of talking and laughing and enjoying one another’s company.

Hmm. I just realized that I rarely talk about anything personal on my blog — I hope I didn’t bore anyone to tears with my rambling. I had some thoughts in my head and I just really needed to write them down. My apologies if anything above makes absolutely no sense. Since graduating from college, I have pretty much forgotten all rules of proper grammer. I’m sure I put those damn commas in the wrong places and I make use of the fabulous run-on sentence far too much. I’m also heavily medicated at the moment (yes, I’m sick for what’s like the 10th time this year) so I’m sitting in front of the computer in a bit of a haze. Anyway. Time for bed.