i feel all torn up

Do not read if you do not want to know about tonight’s episode of Dawson’s Creek.

So Love Bites tore me up. Seriously. I was teary for most of the episode. I can’t believe after all the crap it has put me through (see season 5), the darn show still has an effect on me. Damn it, I really am going to miss it when it’s gone. Only 5 more episodes.

I love Joey but can she get any more wishy-washy?!? The girl needs to learn to make a decision. I can’t for the life of me understand why she would lead Pacey on only to stomp all over his heart when Eddie comes back. Now, I don’t dislike Eddie (I actually thought they were cute during the Christmas episode) but the writers were the ones who dropped the ball. They could have left P/Jo dead and buried. I accepted that. But then 4 episodes ago, they brought up the possibility of P/Jo reuniting — and I really don’t want to let it go that easily.

But the storyline that had me bawling was Jen and Grams. It hit a little too close to home for me. And let me just say that Michelle Williams and Mary Beth Piel are amazing — their tight hug said it all.

Some quotes I liked:
Dawson: Pace, I think after all we’ve been through together that we don’t have to worry about it getting awkward.
Pacey: Well, yes, we’ve certainly been through awkward, but we’ve never been through “I’m broke and it’s all your fault.”

Patrick: Yeah, I don’t know why I should be taking advice from you. Like you’re some kind of Yoda when it comes to the chicks.
Pacey: Have you seen my date?
Patrick: Tell me more, Sensai.

Pacey: So what, you’re scared. Right? You’re scared. And so am I, believe me. And I’m scared because I don’t know where this thing is going, Jo. As in, I think it could go anywhere. This could be it.
Joey: It won’t be.
Pacey: How could you possibly know that? I mean, really. Last week, you’re onboard, and now you’re just psychically telling me that this could never be something great. You can’t possibly know that, because we don’t know that, Joey.

Pacey: Don’t tell me that you’re not scared, because I know that you are. I mean, I’ve known you too long and seen you push away too many good things to let you push me away right now. My whole life, Joey, my whole life you have been the most beautiful thing in my orbit. And my feelings for you were what proved to me that I could be great. And those feelings were stronger and were wiser and more persistent and more resilient than anything else about me.

Grams: Jennifer… I am not ready to die yet. Come here. (Waaahhhhhh!)

And did anyone see the preview for next week? They’re following up an emotionally heavy episode with THAT?!?

live journal

Thanks to everyone for the compliments on the layout. Y’all know how to make a girl smile. 🙂

Am I the only person who *doesn’t* have a Live Journal?

It seems like lots of people are getting one. Is it sad that I want an LJ so I can stop being “anonymous” when I comment? It’s kinda depressing, lol.

Kelly’s going to be on American Idol tomorrow! Very excited about that.

Made some DC caps today but I have no energy to make thumbnails and upload them. Will probably do that by the weekend. If anyone can recommend an easier and faster way of creating a screencap gallery, that would be fabulous. I think I went a bit overboard — I capped 4 scenes today and came out with a little over 180 caps! Crazy.

homage to dc

New layout, yay. I just needed a bit of a change from the red in the last layout. It was getting too bright and cheery… or something.

And yes, I do realize it’s Dawson’s Creek again, lol. I just wanted something that spanned all the seasons of DC since the show is coming to an end soon. Be sure to check out all the other sections — the little header pictures are all different. 🙂 Fun fun.

I’ve actually only managed to watch the first 4 episodes of my DC s1 DVD (Pilot, The Dance, The Kiss, Discovery) and gawd, how much better was the dialogue back then? It’s completely different from the writing in the later seasons. It was a lot more self-aware and witty back then. And I completely agree with Kate, the chemistry between Pacey and Joey is like… palpable. They act as if they despise one another but deep down they have real respect and love for the other. I totally missed that before — I was so busy being confused about which side of the Joey/Jen/Dawson triangle to root for. On the one hand, I wanted Joey to get her dream but I also saw something really sweet in Dawson and Jen’s relationship.

Last bit of DC talk — if you requested DVD caps from me, I haven’t started them yet! Eek, don’t hate me. I was very lazy this weekend. I’ll probably get started tomorrow.

dc dvd’s

Got my Dawson’s Creek DVDs today! So very excited. I haven’t gotten the chance to watch them yet… saving that for the weekend so it’ll be a marathon along with the season 2 episodes that I’ll be taping the rest of this week.

Ok, going to make some screencaps of “The Dance” now — definitely one of my favorite s1 episodes. I loooove the Dawson/Jen scene at the end. “I want to be your boy adventure. ” Awww… back then, I wanted Dawson and Joey to realize their feelings for each other but I did love Dawson and Jen’s brief relationship as well. Sometimes I feel like the only person in the DC fandom who loved Jen in season 1. I know the writers set her up as “the obstacle” to Dawson and Joey but I never used that as a reason to dislike her — and since she’s my favorite character, it disappoints me to read all the blind hatred of her characters simply because she “got in the way.”

Anyway, if anyone else wants me to make them screencaps of certain scenes from my DC DVDs, I’d be happy to do so. I probably don’t have time to do entire episodes but short scenes are fine. 🙂

my poor ears

Gah, who decided it would be a good idea to have disco night on American Idol? Cause seriously, my ears are not happy. It was torture sitting through most of it. I did like Kim L, Clay and Ruben but everyone else was just… meh. I especially found Kim C and Josh to be completely boring — they didn’t hold my attention at all. I’m thinking they’ll both be in the bottom two tomorrow. Speaking of the results show, does anyone know if they’re actually going to eliminate someone now that Corey is gone? Or are they just going through the motions of the show and then let everyone breathe a sigh of relief when they find out they’ve all been given a free pass to the next round? Hmmm. I wouldn’t put the latter past the AI producers. And geesh, AI has been all about the scandal this year — Frenchie and her nude pictures, that one guy who was found to be connected to a murder, Trenyce’s sticky fingers, and now Corey’s charges for assault. Wow. Those AI/Fox people are really doing in-depth background checks. Damn.

Anyway, is it just me or do other people also get emotional (for the lack of a better word) when they hear sad things about the personal lives of celebrities? I just read a short article about Jennifer Garner and Scott Foley splitting up and it made me so sad. I find them to be such a delightful couple — in interviews, they come across as very loving and supportive. It’s unfortunate that their work, if the speculation in the article is true, had to come between them. 🙁

pipe dream

Ok, so going to Wilmington in April is definitely a pipe dream. I spent all weekend going back and forth about whether or not I can actually afford it. And as much as it pains me to say it, I finally decided that I can’t spare the money right now. Waahhh.

But I did get the boyfriend to agree to take me in August. Woohoo! The cast of Dawson’s Creek will probably be long gone but at least I’ll get the chance to see the place where my favorite show was filmed. And I’ll probably be able to stay a lot longer than I would have had I gone through with going in a few weeks. Thanks to everyone who volunteered to go with me though! 🙂 What an adventure that would have been!

Anyway, don’t forget that the DC reruns start tomorrow on TBS. I still can’t believe that they start at 5AM(!) for us on the West Coast. I mean, honestly, who watches TV at that time? Weird.

And yay for Michelle Kwan! I’m so happy that she won the World Championships yesterday. Her performance was nothing short of amazing. I felt a surge of happy emotion during her entire long program. As soon as she took the ice, I just knew she was going to be perfect — she rocked her triple jumps and I loved her straight line footwork. *sigh* I wish that Sasha Cohen and Sarah Hughes had pulled it together, though — it would have been awesome to see a US sweep. I really do think that we had the most depth and technique on our team compared to the rest of the countries in attendance. Must watch it again, hee.

$@!# guestbook

$@!# Megabook!

I don’t understand — this is the *second* time my guestbook has crapped out on me. It’s a conspiracy! Gah — is anyone really familiar with Megabook? When I go to the admin panel, it doesn’t accept my password even though I know the password I put in is completely right. And the guestbook no longer shows up. Stupid thing. *kicks guestbook*

B U T… yay for the new episode of Dawson’s Creek! The possibility of Pacey/Joey, the rekindling of Dawson/Pacey — *sigh* — loved it. 😀

linkin park

Got my new Linkin Park CD today! Wheeeeeeeee! It’s definitely a must-listen — I am currently in love with Somewhere I Belong, Hit the Floor, Faint, and Nobody’s Listening. Awesome stuff.

New DC tomorrow! The last 8 episodes — *sniff*

it begins

Did anyone catch the pilot episode of Dawson’s Creek tonight? Ahhh, so many good memories came back. The pilot is definitely one of my most favorite episodes — I can’t wait for the DVDs! There were so many awesome quotes —

“Did you notice the long fingers?”

“I like your hair color — what number is that?”

“I reject reality.” (This is my favorite scene in the entire episode — Dawson/Jen rock!)

“You did it again — you grabbed me ass.” “Like you even have one.”

“Please, years ago. To a trucker named Bubba.”

Fun stuff — what happened to those snarky characters?!? Dawson, Jen, Pacey and Joey just seemed more genuine and real back then. *sigh*

Ok, some more answers to your questions…

What would you rather be? Deaf or blind? Why?
I would rather be deaf. With the power of sight, I don’t think I would feel as detached from everything. I would be able to see the people I love and communicate with them through written word. I would be able to watch TV with the subtitles on. And I would be able to read books, which is something that I love to do.

Were you in any clubs or on any sports teams in high school? if so, what team(s)/club(s)?
I didn’t play any sports, ie. soccer, basketball. But I was on the dance team as a freshman and for the last three years of HS, I was on the pep squad as a Songleader. My other major extracurricular activity was the filipino club — I was heavily involved as a junior and as a senior when I took the office of Dance Troupe Coordinator. We held an annual show featuring skits and cultural dances and I was responsible for putting it together. Both these activities are some of my most favorite memories from high school. Look at me, I’m getting all nostalgic!

What do you think of this war?
To be quite honest, I’m not the most informed citizen. I don’t watch the news as often as I should and even then, the news broadcasts I do watch tend to focus more on local news rather than national or foreign news. I guess I function in my own little bubble — which I’m not proud to admit. I *should* know what’s going on and I don’t — it’s only now that the war has actually started that I’ve been scouring the net for articles and stories. Anyway, to answer the question — I really don’t know what to think. I’m not anti-war but I’m not pro-war either. I understand the motive behind it but I don’t understand why there can’t be another resolution. One that won’t leave me feeling depressed after watching the news or after seeing the pained face of my boss whose husband just got activated. It’s pretty terrifying.

These questions are definitely keeping me on my toes! More questions — more! 🙂

i miss alex

I miss Alex. Why’d the Roswell writers have to go and kill him off? *sniff*

I had forgotten how his death signaled the coming of seriously unrecognizable characters (read: Liz and Max) and some really cringe-worthy episodes leading up to the s2 finale. I completely disliked “It’s Too Late and It’s Too Bad.” It leaves me with such a bad taste in my mouth. For one, I don’t like Max and Tess. Separately, yes. Together, not so much. I actually really like Tess (even though she killed Alex… grr) but I never saw a single ounce of chemistry between her and Max. Secondly, I detest one-track-mind Liz — she just seems so irrational, always reacting and yelling. She bothers me so much.

I didn’t think it was possible but I love Michael and Maria more now than I did back when the show first aired. Today’s rerun was “Baby, It’s You” — and I was “awww-ing” when Michael told Maria to call him at the first sign of danger. So cute.

Gah, I can’t believe I’m still addicted to this show. Damn reruns! I don’t really have anything else to blog about though. I just may have to take a page from Angie’s book and have you guys ask me questions! lol. Seriously. Ask away.